Prem Azima: Death Of Ego , Straying from path

On the path of meditation, initially it is

important to clean the layers of the normal mind and the personal unconscious, so that repressed emotions and negative attitudes don't block the flow of energy. 

When the mind is relatively clean, the second stage starts. This is the true state of meditation in which we begin to enter the space of No Mind. After experiencing short gaps – moments in which the thinking process stops – we gradually find that we can spend longer and longer periods in the state of meditation and its accompanying states of bliss and peace. 

According to Osho, these spaces of awareness can be of two kinds: implosive or explosive. In the first, we begin to feel the body getting smaller and smaller, finally disappearing and dissolving into nothingness, imploding into an experience of emptiness. 

In the second case, we experience the body expanding in space and continuing to spread and grow until it loses all definition, melting and dissolving into a vast emptiness. These are two ways of experiencing the same thing. Either way, emptiness is the final destination.

 I don't want to seem discouraging, but the possibilities and opportunities for giving up on the path of meditation are infinite. The ego, the personality structure with which we are identified, will do everything in its power to divert our consciousness from the path that leads inside to our being.

In these 35 years that I have continued to walk the path of inner exploration, I have seen thousands of people abandon the path with a wide range of excuses. For example, many who become curious about meditation are not open

to changing their lives. They cling to the security of a steady job or a settled love relationship. The problem is that, sooner or later, spiritual growth requires radical change, often in the spheres of work and relationships. This is not always the case, but as a general rule it's true.

The true spiritual path is a path of death;

death of the person whom we think ourselves to be; death of the ego structure that seems to protect us but in reality keeps us insulated from life; death of all that is false as it burns in the flame of consciousness; death of relationships to which we cling when love has gone, out of a fear of being alone; death of the past and future as we embrace the present moment.

Death of the ego and the rebirth of the 'I,' the real 'I,' the 'I' that none of us yet knows because we haven't asked the fundamental question in this life: "Who am I?"